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James,

I love you so much, you have been my best friend for as long as i can remember, you were there for me when my sister died and you were there for me though my depression. i know i could always turn to you for anything and you wouldnt judge or stare. you would just look at me with those beautiful blue eyes that i fell inlove with and hold me until i fell asleep in your arms. We grew up together, just you and me, bestfriends and lovers. it always was like that. but now we are not little kids anymore and i feel like you have stopped loving me, becuse i cant see those beauitful blue eyes when your with her. it was always suppost to be you and me, and i know i screwed up, i know i failed, but i also know i loved you from the first moment we touched, i looked at you and knew i would be your wife, but now your with her and i guess someday i have to let you go, but i just wanted you to know that i love you and i always have. come.back.to.me.


Haley

_Yesterday we were one
we loved each other so much
today we are apart
just want you to know love never dies
because i still love you so much
i love you more than i ever did
and that means my love for you had never died
i love you so much Flavio


crazy in love

_I remember everyday I spent with you even though it wasnt many. It gave me something that ive been missing for years, since the last time i was able to hold you and it is worth dying for. I dont want to be trapped in a memory anymore, I want to be stuck in reality with you, forever.
We have th test of our lives here and it all starts with these letters because that is all we have. It has always been perfect, meant to be, we are just humans learning to keep our eyes open, learning to make two souls one. There is not a minute that goes by that you are not on my mind. I think all day of how to keep us connected even in our distance.
Its so hard to write to you when each day feels like ten years when we are apart, please baby dont feel lonley or upset, im not gone and i will love you forever and one day we will be together again and nothing will be able to touch this love.

Forever baby, before time began, and when time ends our souls will be connected. I can feel your soul from here. I love you.

Forever Young

Mrs Young

Dear Cody,

I've been wondering what I'm going to write all day today, and finally, instead of a letter to you I think I'll write about the day that started all of this, the day we had our first kiss.
It was November 23rd, 2004, my family came up to your place for Thanksgiving. We arrived the day before, around noon, I waited for you to get home from school and couldn't have been happier when I saw you get off the bus and walk towards me. I remember giving you the biggest hug in the world, and you asked why I had a giant ring in my pony-tail. I honestly thought it looked cute with my hair wrapped around it, but what 10 year old girl doesn't think she looks cute? Haha. We just kind of hung out all day, not really doing much, just spending time together until we were called in for dinner. After that, I remember we sat in your room and listened to Linkin Park, your favorite band at the time, and argued about them because I thought they absolutely sucked. Our parents came to your bedroom door and told us that we could stay up with each other, but that we couldn't sleep in the same bed or together at all for that matter, to which we both agreed. We continued listening to Linkin Park, and talked for hours. I started getting tired and you asked me this question, "Every kiss begins with.....?" and me.. trying to be cute leaned in to try to kiss you and said, "me?", but the real answer was "K". I fell asleep shortly after, and woke in your arms once I heard roosters crowing around 6am or so, the sun was just starting to rise. I shook you awake and told you I was going into the living room to sleep, and I hopped off the bed. As I was leaving, you got down as well, and gave me a hug and said goodnight. Without missing a beat, you leaned in for a kiss, it was just one little peck lasting not even a second, but it was OUR first kiss, which ended up being the start of about 6 little pecks before I could get out of your doorway and into the living room. The next day I was all smiles, we were each others first kiss, and from then on we were inseparable. We walked through this patch of briars to a tree later on in the day, it was of those trees you see in movies, with full shade, and one branch that swooped low enough to sit on. We spent hours on that branch, talking and kissing, haha. We were so innocent back then, and to think that the first lips that I ever kissed will also be the last, what are the chances of that?
I'll never forget that day, Cody. I'll take every opportunity I get to tell somebody about it because it's like a dream to me, and quite possibly the sweetest thing that I've ever heard or that has happened to me. You really are the sparkle in my eyes, and the sun that shines through the window every morning beckoning me to wake, I love you. I always have, and I always will.


Devin Turnquist

I'm so messed up
The words you said to me, "I'm over you and in another relationship" keep ringing in my mind
Everytime I think about you, brings tears to my eyes. 
I've cried on almost every shoulder I know 
I've had random strangers asking me if I'm okay
But never once have I heard those words from the lips that matter to me the most, yours. 
I miss you so bad. 
I don't hear my favorite sound in the world, your voice, anymore. 
I don't even talk on the phone coz it reminds me of you and
How we used to talk at least 3 hours a day, late into the night, ignoring my parents screaming at me
Sometimes, it's takes all I have to force myself away from the phone
But what hurt like nothing else, was when I did call you and all I heard was silence
You don't care about me anymore. 
You ignore my face in the corridor everytime. 
The day after you last called me, I saw your face full of concern. 
Like you even care what the shit happens to me. 
I turned away becoz I didn't want u to see me cry
And after that u simply turned away too everytime you saw me
I really need you
I'm roaming around the whole house, not knowing what to do
Cause what the hell am I supposed to do with all those hours I used to spend talking to you? 
What am I supposed to think about, if not you?
I just keep wondering if I should let you go 
Not that you already didn't, but wondering if I should stop loving you too
Coz something keeps pulling me back
Something keeps telling me I'll get you back
Something says i couldn't last a day more without your face, your voice
The most important things to me in the world
But then, I've already lasted 5 days, crying my ass off, and I called u only once. 
And I didn't beg you to take me back
Cause I've got my pride too. 
You've got her now. The girl I wish was never born 
But who have I got? 
I tried talking to my best friends. But their voice doesn't match yours. 
Their replies are not as familiar to me as yours. 
Cause when I started loving you, 5 months back, I pushed away everyone else and you were the only person I talked to. 
I didnt care that they were all pissed at me,
And I'll love them forever becoz they were still always there for me, and still are, when you left me. 
I wonder what happened to all those million promises you made
I miss asking you what your wearing, what your doing, getting mad at you becoz u didn't sleep enough
I miss the way you used to love making me jealous and then tell me how important I am to you and you would never love anyone like that
I miss annoying you
I miss making fun of you and laughing like I never laughed before
I miss looking up into your brown eyes and never fail to see them looking into mine with the most amused, caring, loving smile. 
I miss turning back and always, always see you staring at me. 
I miss the way you always watched my back, like literally, made sure I didn't fall when I was walking backward, made sure i didn't play with roses so I don't get pricked, made sure I never had something sharp in my hand becoz u thought I was careless enough to get hurt, which I was. 
I miss the way you used to get pissed because i got hurt
I miss telling myself to be careful coz someone out there really cared
I miss telling myself to stop crying coz someone out there didn't want me to
I miss trying to watch your favorite shows and end up either changing the Channel in a few seconds or falling asleep
I miss waking up in the morning and wishing the unbelievable dream about you was true
I miss shrugging and smiling while telling stories about us to others
Cause now, when I do, I'm only crying 
I love how you'd always support every single thing I did or wanted or said. 
I love the unrealistic, impossible stories you used to tell me whenever something made me sad or mad. 
I love the way you used to get annoyed when a guy used to talk to me. 
I love the way I was your number one priority, how you used to hang up on your friends because I was calling. 
It just gets really hard when I remember I can't tell you stuff anymore. 
I don't get to tell you what Im wearing, what Im doing, why I'm laughing. 
I don't get to talk dirty with you anymore. 
I don't get to threaten you by saying I'll punch you so hard I'll break your jaw or by saying ill kick you hard over "there" 
I miss getting teased by my friends about you
I miss blushing. I really do. I really miss that so bad
Never again would you leave your friends and come to me 
Never again would I stare at you with narrowed eyes coz I saw you looking down there. 
Never again would I get to talk dirty with you using our own code language for all the stupid words because there were people around me 
Never again would you go into the washroom and secretly talk to me coz your dad would screw you, but I was really in the mood for talking to you 
Never again would I have to remain silent and make you understand exactly what was wrong
Never again would your password be my name
Never again would I get to sit beside you
Never again will I feel your legs beside mine
Never again will I fall over you becoz I wanna see what's happening on the  other side of you
Never again will I try to walk faster so at least my shadow can be taller than yours
Never again will I run my hand through your hair
Never again will I get to draw crap on your hand with eyeliner
Never again would you take care about how short my skirt was or about how many buttons of my shirt were open or how I was bending to tie my shoelace. 
Never again could I get to delibrately call you when your in the middle of your shower and not let you go
Never again will I hear you laugh becoz of my stupidness 
Never again will I see you searching the crowd for me
Never again would I see your face light up just because you saw me
Never again will I come into your dreams
Never again will I make you smile
Never again will I hear you say "I love you" 
Cause you've got another girl now. 


Natasha

I cannot tell you how much I miss you. Since you have been gone I feel as if I am wearing a pair of glasses that reveal the harsh clarity of reality. It appears that my life had been shrouded in a comfortable blur for the sixty-three years of our marriage. Everything that I took for granted is amplified now that you are missing from me.
More than anything I get stuck thinking about our beginnings. All we had was each other and that rusted old car. I never thought I would miss those stressful days, but they sound so good to me now. We always had a way of pushing through the hard times together. I never understood how you had so much confidence that everything would wind up okay in the end. You never doubted that we would have the fairytale ending of owning a beautiful home and creating a family together. That dream was all I ever wanted, and I was so afraid of it not coming true. I guess the only two things that helped me keep my chin up, in the midst of all that hard work and worrying, were you and driving that car.
You knew how much I loved to drive so you always let me take the wheel. I honestly cannot think of another man who would have let their wife have so much control back in those days. You were so good to me, never stopping short of making me happy. Driving brought me so much happiness until now. I never realized how much I appreciated our car rides. They were a time when I had you and only you with no interference from the outside world. Being in the car with you was like a quiet vacation from life. Car rides hurt me so badly these days. I think the big difference is that I loved our car rides. The “our,” makes so much difference.
When I drive now I feel the absence of your hand on my thigh, it feels so cold. I hear the quiet hum of the engine so loudly, this noise is supposed to replace you? It will never replace your voice, your thoughts, your feelings. I now have to look both ways when I cross a street or change lanes, it feels so strange. I just cannot get used to looking to the right. Where are you to say, “all clear my love?” I am reminded of my careless mistakes by the angry cars behind me. Do they do not realize that they only remind me of the empty passenger seat? I hate that passenger seat.
Where are you to take the wheel while I put on my lip stick? I will never be deaf to you calling me “fancy face,” after the fact. I still see you smile; you knew you could never go wrong with that line. How can I feel beautiful without you here?
When I would forget my purse in the house you would automatically hop out of the car to get it for me. Never mad, you would do this, and even give me a kiss upon your return. Forgetfulness doesn’t get me a kiss these days, only a chill, from having to venture into the cold once more. Sometimes I don’t know if it is worth it, but the cold never stopped you.
Our songs on the radio ring in my ears. I am not used to the famous voices. Your booming voice mixed with my laughter was my music. A melody will never sound so sweet. I guess music just can’t do the trick for me anymore.
Whenever I was sad we would drive. I would eventually pull over and cry my heart out on your shoulder. You would always run your thumb under my eyes to wipe my tears. You were always so perfect at this, never messing up my makeup, all the while telling me how pretty I looked when I cried. You made me feel beautiful even through my sobs. I look back and I realize I had nothing to be upset about. But now that I have lost you I have a real reason to cry. Where are you to dry my eyes and kiss my wet cheeks? I just don’t think I can’t do this by myself.

I have trouble opening the driver’s side door now. I am not sure if I ever opened it on my own until I lost you. You were such a gentleman. I think I might be getting too weak to open it on my own. Maybe it might be time for me to stop driving. I really hate it now anyways. I guess I only loved driving so much because you were there beside me. I am trying so hard to be strong for you; I know you would never allow me to be sad. But I simply don’t think I will be happy until I have you again. Maybe I will go on my last drive today. I love you.



Lacy Raef

It was long time ago we met in that magical city and we have started to live a wonderful life, together as you my wife. I was so happy when we were together and I was so happy when we had our son. We have problems and I know I could have been a better husband. But now that you gone, and worse I made you take that decision, it hurts so much I can't even explain. I have never been hurt this much ever in my life. We had happy life, I would say. We fought but then again we made up. I miss how you crawl up the bed and curl to my side and grab my hand and say loving words to make up after a fight. But baby I am not going to talk about the bad moments because we have so much good memories we shared. Even the last Sunday when we went to the beach and the entire week before this big stupid fight.

I said so many things to hurt you. But I must I understand why I was so stupid. In my life I wanted only three things. You, my children and the life I was chasing. I got all of those. And no I have none of them!!! How many times have I told you that I was a very happy man during the last couple of months? But I am probably the worst looser in this world, to let go something so good.

Baby there was one thing which caused these fights. Remember when you left me in England I was so sad. I didn't speak to anyone. I just came here. I was crying all the way on the flight. We were gonna come together. Then to come alone way too painful. But more than anything I thought I was not being loved by you. I became jelous I think. I wanted you and you came back anyway. When you came back remember I asked you to promise not to leave me again and promise work on counselling or something if we have problems again. Baby I am so to keep hurting you but I did those because I was deeply hurt and thought you don't love me. Remember I told you many times that I want to feel your love. Baby I am not a baaad person or the worst person you think I am. I am a good person who did some bad things. I said a lot to hurt you. I never meant anything. It was just to hurt your feelings to get back at you. But what I should have done is to forget about what happened and live with you. Because you tried hard during the last couple of months. But I had a hard time overcoming the England last week. I wish there was someone who saw this fault in me and told me. I wish...oh baby I wish.

The day we had the fight I told you not to take my son because I knew that you will not leave me without our son. That was the best I did to stop you. But I don't think I was thinking that way. You were thinking I really meant it. How could I raise our son without you. You don't know baby. After the fight I told you when we were sitting on the bed..I held you had and hugged you and said I am sorry and you don't have to go. This is the best I did to mend your broken heart. I should have touched your feet and begged. I would have if I knew you were leaving. Oh baby I miss you. But then you left to get salary. I asked you If you want me to come...because I was hurting and knew you were as well. I wanted to come. But you said you will come back. Oh baby why you didn't? Then me and our son waited till 3pm and you were not back. I got so worried and after son's lunch I walked down to the city. We went to mall and everywhere. We on a bench and had chips and waited hoping you will pass by. Our son was just holding my had all alone. Never asked to let go as he usually does. I felt he also knew something is wrong. Because usually when you gone to work he never ask about you. And I only say ammi is at work and he does his things until you come. But that day he was sooo sad asking me "ko ammi" again and again even when we were walking.

We came back and you were not back at home. I got very scared knowing you were sensitive I went to the Airport. You were not there. On our way back our son was still asking when you would come home. When we came back from the airport and found you were not home baby I was devasted. Didn't know where to go and what to do Called the police and asked them to help me to find them. But since you were seen at 2 hrs ago they told me to wait till tomorrow morning. That wasn;t enough for me. I asked some of your contacts on the phone to help me locate you. I just wanted to find you and bring you home and to beg you to forgive me and to live again like we did. But by 9 I was feeding the little one. Then they came to arrest me. Our son ran out and said thatti don't go...Oh my god. I wish you could see my tears when I recollect and write this. You are an angel. But I am not a devil as well. I am a man in love who made some terrible mistakes. I know that.

Baby we start arguing some silly things and then we both say things to hurt each other. That is where all this began. Now I can't tell you how I feel. I can't. They won't let me. I am lonely in this house. I hear you and our son talking in the living room. I have not gone to the living room since you left. Our son's toys are everywhere. I can't and dont have the courage to clean the living. They all remain where you left them. I just live on this bed crying, thinking, writing and crying again. I have never cried like this. I never even knew I could cry this much. I cant sleep. I hear your voice. I hear our son calling me. "thatta lets jump", "thatta lets go out", "thatta lets play". Ane please I want it back. I still see you walking out of the door so sad. I still see you siting on my end of the bed and crying. And I keep doing things I should have done. I go to the door and bring you in and sit you on bed and beg you. I come to the bed, kneel, take your had and ask you to forgive. I will go crazy like this. Without talking to you how I do anything? You are my life and my future. You know that. Ane this is enough pain and hurt for both of us. I learned my lessons. I will forget all my past. And I will change. But please come back to me. Please at least for once talk to me and say you care about me..pleeease. Because without your caring I am nothing. I have no life. I don't know what I should do. You are the only one who can make things right for me now. I am asking you to forgive me..just once. And we will move forward. You will never be hurt again. Before when we fought we had our problems. This time we fought for nothing. We had earned the life we wanted. We were happy. It just I did not overcome what happend in UK and kept remining about it. But dont you think I am suffering too much pain already for that stupidity. Baby I m crushed. But see this will hurt our son as well. He doen't know what is going on. But I don't want him to grow up without his father. His father is not a bad man. I saw bad men when I was in remand. I wasn not like them. I was so scared in there. I ran home after that hoping for slightest chance of you may be still at home waiting for me to come. But I was wrong. You were gone. I was crushed and collapsed. This hurt all of us. But believe me I can change. But I need you and my son and all the love and caring to be that man. I want to be that man. You know one of our fav movie "the beautifulmind" and how Prof Nash's wife pull through the hardtime because of his mental situation. Baby I need you now more than ever. I might not win the nobel price like Prof Nash and I might not be able to give you a flashy speach like he did. But I truely believe that the best discovery of my life is in the equations of love which is you and my son nd my love for you. I need that love to forget this past, to be a husband i want to be. Remember I always tell you I 'm not like. I care about you. Please don't let this sillyness and hot temper take our futures away. There are so many other thing that we can do to solve those things. And we will do that together. We will face things with love and courage. Baby you that I am approaching my Phd with excellence. I had already started to work on my seconed publication when this happen. But Now I can all that. And we loose all this. I loose you, ehtan, and the life we planned. You lose me and life we planned. Ethan loose me and the life he could have had with me. Lets not do that baby. I don't know if I am saying the same thing again and again.

This is the end of my long planned education. It will be over soon. I don't care. Without you and without our life none of this matter to me. I did all this for us to have a better life. Every thing I earned I spent on you and our son. You know that. You know how I am. I know you are soo hurt and I did that to you. But you exactly what happend that day. I hope when you see through the pain of my words I said you will see how honest and saddened I am. We can still build this life. We still have time. You still have your jobs. But time will erase all this and I am scared it will arase us. Please come back darling. I will tight from the airport and will never ever again let you go. God I need my wife and son. I wish you could see me and talk to me. I know you will understand. You are the only one who can understand. So day and night I pray to see and talk to you even I am not suppose to.

If there is someone out there who understand this pain and can look beyond the silly actions took place on that day please help us. We need you more than you know. And I give my word to you baby and to my son to make it my life mission to sort this out and to keep you happy ever after.

Patiya

I still remember the first time when I saw you, I knew there was something about you and since that time I fell in love with you. Even though, we went to the same high school together and we hated each other, but there was just something about you that changed everything. One day you decided to talk to me and I was so happy to hear you voice, too see that smile and those dark brown eyes. It wasn’t the same, ever since our friendship grew closer and I was still that same little crazy blonde girl. Sometimes we could talk for hours and hours, but I knew that you were always there for me. You were there when I needed you the most, you were there to make me smile, to make me laugh and to cheer me up. We had the same classes together pretty much every day and, you were there to help me or to explain me everything what I didn’t understood. Sometimes when I saw you around other girls I was so mad, so emotional and so sad at the same time. I wanted you to know that I loved you ever since I saw you, but things changed. We both had different feelings towards each other and we dated with different people. After a year when I had to leave, it was the most emotional day in my life. I didn’t want to go, I wanted to stay. You knew it, that this school was where I belonged to. I cried so much and I couldn’t believe that it was it, that I had to say goodbye to you and to everyone else. I was so scarred, I thought that I would never see you again, but I was wrong. Days, weeks and months passed by, but I still couldn’t stop thinking about you, you were like one of my best friends who you actually really were at that moment. After a while I saw you in Facebook and I immediately added you, we started to chat and talk about our lives and things what we have done ever since I left my old high school. Our friendship started to grow closer again and it made me smile. I can still remember chatting with you in Facebook for hours and just knowing that you care, it made me feel like I am dreaming, but I wasn’t, because that was all real. One day when I went for a visit to my old high school to see my ex-boyfriend who was your best friend you were still there and I was so happy to see that I wanted to hold you in my hangs and never let go. You hugged me so tight and gave me a kiss on a check and it made me smile I felt like that you were absolutely a different person who you actually really were. You were way taller, more handsome and funnier. I wanted to stay with you, but I had to go. After few months passed by your best friend broke up with me, well, actually we both did. I was so sad at that moment, so emotional and so angry that I didn’t talked for days and weeks with anyone, but you were there to comfort me, you made me smile and you made me understand that he wasn’t the one, and that he wasn’t worth it. You said that I was beautiful and that I deserve someone who really loves me and cares for me. Someone who understands me and treats me the way I want. You made me understand that he really wasn’t that person, but what you made me understand is that you cared for me more than you did when we went to the same school together. At the same day when we finally talked I was at work, I stood up late for hours just to chat with you, when you finally asked me to be your girlfriend, at that moment I was so shocked and I thought that you were just kidding but you weren’t. I knew the answer already, but it took me a while to say it out loud. Finally, when I said “YES” I asked you to promise me that you would never ever, ever break my heart and you did promise me that. Now that months have passed by us, we love each other more than anyone else in this world. We both are crazy about each other and we don’t care what people say about us, not even what they think about us. We both have learned so much from each other and we have done so many crazy things that no one could ever do it. Just to get to see each other we would do everything, stay up late to chat in skype , wait for everyone to go to sleep and make you come over to my work and make you climb in my room through the window all these crazy things make me love you even more. I still remember that day when you took me to the Minnehaha Falls; it was so beautiful, we walked around the river holding our hands together and feeling each other’s care. You made me feel like no one ever did, so different from everyone. At that same day we took pictures of that beautiful fall I was the one who wanted to take the pictures of you, so I did. You looked so handsome and so charming that I kept looking into your eyes for minutes until you turned away. You made me laugh by the way you posed so that I could take the pictures; it was so funny but worth it. After that, you wanted to do the same for me, I felt so embarrassed somehow, but I knew that there was nothing to be embarrassed about taking pictures, because I have done it for many years and even when I was 15 years old I won the 1st place in school’s model concurs. After all, you took me to the small place where there were benches and you pushed two of them together and told me to lay down I was confused at that moment, but I did it anyways and you told me to look up at the skies. I was so suppressed and happy at that moment, because I have always dreamed to do that with someone who I love the most and that was you. Ever since, I was a little girl there is something about clouds and stars that I like, something that makes me look up for hours and smile. While we were laying there on the benches, you hugged me so tight and kissed me so gentle that I felt happier than ever. I could hear you heart pumping so fast and how much you cared about me at that moment, even your kisses made me understand that. I felt so warm and so loved being in your arms, that was all I wanted. Looking up at the skies and seeing falling stars meant me so much, I wished that I would never let you go and your promise will last forever. We have done so much together than I have done with anyone else and you make me the happiest woman in this world. Now that we both love each other so much and want this to last forever we promised to get engaged and get married after few years until we are more than just ready. I can see already us being together and living together in our own house and having a family who we love. I can see already how happy we would both be and nothing would change that. Even though, I have days when I feel less than nothing, but you are always there for me to make me feel happier and sometimes when we hit the rope everything changes, but we both underhanded and nothing can change our love, it just makes us stronger. Baby, I just want you to know that I love you and I can’t imagine spending another day without you, and that you are the best boyfriend I have ever had in this whole world, and that I won’t ever lose you or let you slip away from me. There is no a day when I don’t think about you, about your smile and about your care, your love, tender and kindness. There is no a day when I go to bed thinking about you, and waking up thinking about you. You will always be in my mind and in my heart. I just want you to know that you make me feel the happiest woman in this world when I am with you. I Love you Antuan.

Baiba

I froze, I didn't know what to say or what to do. I was like a terrified animal in the spotlight of a hunter preparing to rip my life apart. I'm am sorry I didn't know what to do or what to say. I didn't have the knowledge or tools to handle our situation the way I should have and in my own ignorance I shattered my heart. I loved you more than I realised and I realised the depth of my affection for you way too late. I loved you with all my heart and soul and I didn't know how to express my feelings for you in a way that would make a difference. I didn't think I could do anything that would make a difference because I assumed you were already gone, that he had already won you over. Looking back I think I may have assumed too much.

The only thing I knew to do was to let go and let God handle it. Maybe that was just a way of quitting, maybe it was just ignorance. I was in denial and in fear at the same time. I didn't want to lose you, I didn't want to get my heart shredded and I didn't know how to stop the unraveling or stop my anxiety. I wanted to fight for you but you said I should let you go. I should have seen those words were spoken by the little girl inside who didn't want to be rejected, again.

I didn't want to be controlling. I wanted to show you unconditional love by loving you right where you were and not trying to change you. I wanted to let you gain self confidence by allowing you to walk your path instead of telling you what I thought you needed to do, like some people have done. I wanted you to see I loved you because of all your quirks and insecurities, not inspite of them. I understood why you did those things and I wasn't going to be the guy that abandoned you in your greatest time of need. I know what it is like to be abandoned by those who are supposed to
love us unconditionally. I wanted you to know my heart was not in the relationship to be walked on, this is why I confronted you that Wednesday in April after I went through your phone. I didn't want to break up with you, I just wanted to stand up to you and that back fired on me.

I wanted you to see and know that no matter how terrible you thought you were to me, I never took it personally because I have been there. I wanted you to know I loved you anyway but I was scared of getting burned and abandoned. I wanted to show you grace by not retaliating. I wanted to show you mercy by showing you compassion that had been shown to me. We can't give that which we have never received. I wanted you to see, feel, experience the awesome fullness of grace and mercy like it was meant to be shared. I wanted to provide these to you because I could tell you had been deprived of them for far too long. I wanted to be that guy who swept you off your feet with only the power of love, grace and mercy like you had never felt in your lifetime. I froze at the worst time possible and I failed you anyway. I failed at love.

I miss your gorgeous smile that warmed my heart and brightened my every day. I miss our late night talks lasting until early morning. I miss our intoxicating kisses which made the whole world go away. I miss the glow we shared when I saw you as I walked in the door. I miss seeing or talking to the woman I adore. I miss the way we could do anything or nothing at all and fully enjoyed being together. I miss your mango talapia and breaded chicken, too. I froze, I didn't know what to say or what to do.

I miss having you in my life, my best friend.

M&M

Everdearest Darrell,

Tears thats the company i keep since we parted, thats all i can do....and my friends said i looked horrible, they say im stupid crying over you. But what can i do, i've tried so much to forget you, but your thoughts just keep coming back to my memory. When will i ever learn to forget you......when the more i try to put you in my mind, the more i remember you......places we've been, faces we've seen, just keep coming back to my memory........your stare, your voice....yes, how can i forget you....how can i when im so much inlove with you.
I love you so much, always and forever you will stay here in my heart, i will keep all the memories that we have shared.......always and forever, here in my heart.......i love you Darrell and thanks for everything.

Loving you forever,
Cristina