When we first met, I didn’t know what I really wanted.
I had been in jail so long with my previous marriage, I was just glad to be free.
Then you came into my life I didn’t know how to love you, I was scared to trust you..
But over time you earned my trust and I fell very much in love with you.. I guess the first time you broke things off, was when I first realized just how much you meant to me.
Then afterward remember when I almost backed out, you don’t realize how scared I was. We were so in love after we got back together.
This is when I seen us together for a life time. It scared the hell out of me. No one I knew had even heard of a love like ours except for in fairytales. Somehow we made it thru and found ourselves on the other side...
I must mention the Purple Monkey, we prayed for signs, we both got our signs. If God wasn’t in our relationship, then why were we praying.. With each challenge we faced and overcame, I fell more in love with you..
Someone ask me the other day what I was looking for in life and love.. And out of nowhere, I told them that I was looking for once in a life time, the kind of love that movies where made about... the kind of love that songs were written about…the kind of love that inspires the poet in each of us.
That’s what you and I had..
People search their whole lives for the kind of love we found in each other. You are the love of my life, my once in a life time, my soul mate, the other half of me, you are the person I see in the rocker next to me..
Now tell me, how am I suppose to live my life without you.. God has told me to wait, pray, grow and have faith. To believe in him, I have to believe in us for he gave us our purple monkey. I don’t know how we could ever work things out considering all that has happened.
But I do know this, if God ever see’s fit to open a door for us again, I will not run. A love like ours is worth fighting for.. With his help we will find a way to forgive each other and move on, to the life we were meant to have together..
Now, I am praying that somehow this letter will find it’s way into your hands just by my posting it and asking the ones who read it before you to pray with me. When it does, you will know it was meant for you..
You will know in your heart what to do. I’m still paddling, baby… My heart and soul are not complete with out you..