Love, ahhh.....Where should I start.....or is there ever an end on what I feel for you. But how can I? Why could I not? The memories have conquered a major part of me.....as if they're pieces of me that may it be disarrayed will still form the deepest of my being.....always exist and persist no matter how hard I try to resist and ignore.
I often ask myself have I really fallen hard for you.....or just with our precious memories. As though with it, my eyes opened up and were introduced into so much possibilities yet, confined in a world I created that is exclusive.....so private that its doors had closed for others so that only you could see.....that only you had seen. After all these years of being apart, one thing that is certain.....thoughts of you don't seem to fade away no matter what I do.....no matter where I am. Then life went on and I met someone, felt the love once again.....but somewhere along its course it failed. I believe I have given as much as what was given, and perhaps even more.....but still has failed. There was something lacking that was so difficult to point out. I can not deny the fact of the moments when I could still hear my old heart that I've given away so long a time telling me, "I know this heart still holds a very special place for the one you've given it to.". And most certain I am but then, I would always reply, "It's no longer mine to keep.".
Here I am, always praying for the best things to happen to the both of us.....even with separate lives. That's probably what love is.....how love is. If it isn't, then what is? It makes me wish of only the wonderful things for you even now that you do not have the slightest idea that I still do.....do still care a lot about you and not asking nor waiting for it to be reciprocated. As to how I remember you, I believe you have found your happiness and living the life you've always wanted it to be, now with a family perhaps.....the thought of it makes me happy as well and it's perfectly fine with me, just as I always say to you.
With the constant change of the wind, glimpse of hope burns and fizzles.....fizzles then burns.....not knowing how long this heart could withstand the current of time.....until such a time its feelings will vanish with its memoirs.....then a new chapter begins. To you my beloved hazel-eyed Hokshilato, my once bee, a love in the ocean and flight of a lifetime, stay happy and take good care of yourself always!..... from the innermost of my being
(hee_rain)
Here I am, always praying for the best things to happen to the both of us.....even with separate lives. That's probably what love is.....how love is. If it isn't, then what is? It makes me wish of only the wonderful things for you even now that you do not have the slightest idea that I still do.....do still care a lot about you and not asking nor waiting for it to be reciprocated. As to how I remember you, I believe you have found your happiness and living the life you've always wanted it to be, now with a family perhaps.....the thought of it makes me happy as well and it's perfectly fine with me, just as I always say to you.
With the constant change of the wind, glimpse of hope burns and fizzles.....fizzles then burns.....not knowing how long this heart could withstand the current of time.....until such a time its feelings will vanish with its memoirs.....then a new chapter begins. To you my beloved hazel-eyed Hokshilato, my once bee, a love in the ocean and flight of a lifetime, stay happy and take good care of yourself always!..... from the innermost of my being
(hee_rain)
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