Dear Ryan

Dear Ryan, I know what your thinking, you probably think that I have only just done this because you have said something or because I want something in return. the truth is its not. I am writing this because I want to tell you how much you do really mean to me. since the first date we had together I knew I could easily fall in love with you. what I didn’t know was for long we would last and to be quite frank I am surprised. the reason I am surprised is because I never knew someone like you could love me back as much as I loved them. people say there is no such thing as love at first sight - well they are wrong because after that first date, our first kiss I knew you were the one and by the end of our first week of being boyfriend and girlfriend I knew I was positively in love with you. what got me first was your smile, the way it curved at the side of your mouth. by seeing that, I knew you were a smiler. someone who didn’t let things get to them, someone who always had a reason to smile. even now you still smile and when I see you smile, I smile because I know you are happy. then there are your eyes. your eyes which had that twinkle in them. a twinkle that made my heart feel as if it was on a roller coaster. that feeling was new to me. no one had ever given me that feeling which is why I knew you were special. even now when I look at you sometimes, you may not be doing anything special or doing anything that I may notice, I sometimes just look your way and I look at you at my heart skips because in all honesty, I feel as if I have hit the jackpot and that I am the luckiest girl in the world because I have a boyfriend so handsome and not just handsome but a boyfriend who is perfect for me. even now when you smile and laugh, even at the stupidist thing, that twinkle is still there and I know it will be for as long as you love me. then to your lips. the first time you kissed me was at the cinema and I remember how soft they were. as soon as you bent down to kiss me I knew I wanted to kiss those lips for the rest of my life. I knew no other lips would be as soft and affectionate as the ones which kissed me that night. even after all the kisses we have had over the years they are still as soft as ever and I know with each kiss it is still filled with love and tenderness. you fill me with love Ryan, love that I feel no one has ever felt and in which I feel as if I am the only one experiencing this kind of love. no one is as lucky as me to be able to feel this feeling. yes we have had some bad times and we have had a couple more but what ever has happened in the past its like a test in my eyes. those things happened for a reason. just look at us now, in my eyes we have overcome the test otherwise we wouldn’t be where we are now. five and a half years down the line, five years of which I least expected, I am still so in love with you. and with every day that goes by I love you that little bit more. my love will continue to grow for you for the rest of our days together. there are many people out there who have been together as long as you and I, even longer and their feelings for each other, I bet, are not the same as four years ago. I haven’t got tired of you, you still do it for me and I cant see myself being with any other guy than you. . you don’t realise how much you have actually done for me. you have made me a stronger person you have taught me to stand up for myself, be the person I want to be, to an extent! you have led me on the right path, and you have made me feel secure and safe. when I am with you I know I am in safe arms and nothing can hurt me. you have been there for me through my bad times. you may not have liked all my bad times but whenever I am in that place you are the first and probably, sorry the only one who will help me laugh and take my mind off things. that’s not just doing the duty of a boyfriend that’s being my friend too. so, Ryan, with all this taken in to context and the fact that marriage isn’t on the cards I just want to let you know that no matter what happens, no matter how good or bad we are or weak or strong we may be I will always love you. love forever & always, your baby girl, Cherri xxxxxxxxx


cherri morrison