I look at you, the cards you laid on the table, knowing there is nothing up your sleeve but a tender heart, and I can't believe I've been doing it all wrong for so many years. I question if I ever knew what true love was, before you showed me. I question if I've ever really been loved, before you loved me. So many years I wasted trying to control love with uncooperative approaches, thinking if I could take full control, I could protect my heart and keep it from breaking. But through your patience, your kindness, and this beautiful love you give, you've shown me that if a man loves you, he will give you his first, his best, and his only, without ever having to ask. That all the women really needs to do, is let a man be a man, and if he is the right man, he will always make the right decision.
I have willingly surrendered thoughts of control, possession, jealousy, irrationality, double standards, self righteousness, and stubbornness, and proudly replaced them with compassion, understanding, compromise, gratitude, generosity, fairness, logic, and teamwork. All because of you. All because of your unwavering love. You lead and I follow. It's mesmerizing how you tame me.
You've taught me that the honesty of a man starts within himself. If he is selfish, he will stay true to this as well. You have taught me a love, a selfless love. A love I've never known. A fairytale kind of love. A love where you're only job is to do for the other, and in order to obtain true selfless happiness, you must put forth your best efforts to make your partner happy, as this in turn will deliver the same feeling of satisfaction within.
No one lights a candle to the magic you've brought to my life. For the first time, I know I am not settling. I found something I want to work my hardest on, because I know there is nothing better than this.
For the first time, I feel inadequate of someone else's love. Because of this, I will always give you my best. You are better than me, yet you treat me as an equal. I need you. You continue to teach me. You have something so beautiful and priceless to offer. Having met you is a reward in itself, but being able to call you my love, being your first choice for a future, humbles me to be open and mindful of even the most difficult situations we may encounter, ahead.
Never before have I ever been with someone who actively tried to please me. Someone who thinks of me often in his actions. Someone who I know puts me before the number one. Someone who is so honest it sometimes hurts, but I know I'd never rather have it any other way, as your honesty continues to shower my faith in you so that it many continue to grow.
You give me a sense of certainty that I have chosen the perfect man to share this life with. We are a team. No single one of us can ever be more right than the other. We make decisions together. We carry the other person when their legs give out. We treat each other as rare and as special as we hold each other in our hearts. Always giving and able, we take from one another, not things with dollar value, but lessons, and growth. We are grateful to each other of the things we learn from one another. We compliment often. And when we apologize for something, we show it by never having to apologize twice for the same thing. We talk instead of argue because we respect each other. You respect me. I respect you. We respect what we have and neither one of us work against it.
I love you.
I adore you.
You are my first love of selfless love, but my last love of every love. I have bested my search. It ends with you.
Sophia