My Love Dairy (love story)

M afraid things r getting over from ur side. God has really made u special for me i want u to be in me all through my life i will cherish all those moments spent with you kano! u remember how did we start? It was in a mail telling ya i love you bt m afraid to say that :) dat day i just couldn't stop myself to meet u bt u couldn't make it up for dat bus!n d day when u first hold my hand it really felt like m on cloud 9 bt u were telling what does it feel like holding hand i never feel anything i been holding all my frns hand! Buddu u r my boyfrnd and i would really feel good! And the crazy way we were holding hand so that no1 should see dat ! I am missing them why does days run i want everything to go back and stop wher i met u! I want all these be a dream i wake up getready to dat bus and sit beside u holding ur hand nd u b stil hav long hair! I want those day back! the way i used to irritate u by telling i love u thousand times and asking u m i looking good! N u were like so pissed wit dat! U wer really looking funny wid that kurta of ur bro it was too long for u! u wer so hunry dat day and u wer looking cute eating those hot salad! I dont mind spend whole day watching u eat u look like a baby my baby I dont understand why these punishment of staying away from you! Thumba miss madkotini kano! But i will nt disturb u any more may be things are designed to be like this and may be you would be rather happy without me! Ya there wer somethings which i made u to do which u never wanted to do m sorry for dat m like a fool thinking those will increase our relationship and thy actually ruined our relation! U are ver y nice some1 else would have taken all the advantages out of! me m re ally very thankful to god for providing those wonderful moments wit u i know you would also miss me as much as i do n u think its better this way than making me hurt later its been a week we spoke it was never these long distance even when u wer onsite we fought and we wrnt speaking for week i was just looking at god nd asking he forgot me?? Right away u called me! I do that prayer now every day and every moment bt never c ur number on my mobile when i c msg alert i know it would b some ad bt still i will be tempted to c thinking is dat you. I have no dare to type ur number. I miss you so much every second i wait for u the heart like stuff u gave is the only thing which i have as your memory. I speak to it asking about your return it says move on. Plz come back i wana c u i wana hear u speak i wana feel u being with me plz come back. He is good bt he seems nt to encourage me as like u did. He wants me to quit my job any time he wishes and offcourse my parents have no problem wit dat. what should i do m in delima i m scared feels like death was easier than this bt i dnt want to die and kill ur memories i want to live carrying them. Ppl say m crazy, emtional, unrealistic, u wer nt worth for me, m nt worth for u or what ever i dont care i dont really care what it is why it is i just like the feeling of being in love wit u, thinking about u. I keep listening to dis song khaali hai tere bina dono akhiyan from paheli it so much reminds u. I really miss u. Do u remember u always recomnd me to wear proper westrn cloths i would look much better antha. Now i wear them i have cut my hair i look really cute in mirror but u r nt ther to say that u r nt ther to c me and say how good i look! I found no other option now kano u r nt @ all thr any more for me